heading in the right direction..

After having so many downs.. ive come to realise (yet again) whatz important in life... and i wanna go into that direction... gota see the positives instead of the negatives as someone onced said to me..

i honestly gota stop drinking and going out.. been drinking so much lately it isnt funnie.. n clubbing itz da same shyt.. gota stop going n save money... gota put what i want in life in practice.. sumwhere along da way i lost maself.. honestly im mentally ill sometimes.. all da shyts r killing ma brain cells.. no wonder im mental... hmmmm... life is lyk a joke sometimes.. but u gota make the most off it i guess... no more negative thinking i reckon... hmmm..

i feel so lonely sometimes thatz y i get bored easily i guess... itz still hard on da weekends sometimes coz i wish vi was still here.. i noe she'd be wif me wen i need her.. n i wouldnt be lonely wifout her.. im so confused sometimes.. im lyk so lost... i duno what i want at tyms.. no wonder i go mental at tyms... but yeah new thinking.. i noe what i want (right now) so gota head that way... he's lyk da best... i duno y im so dumb sometimes... man last nyt was abit fked up... i duno what im doing sometimes.. i mean wtf... feel so bad sometimes.. i mean it was an alright nyt.. (besides D gettin in a fight n all.. i was lyk wtf what should i do.. should i beat dis gal up or stop da fight.. lucky i just decided to try n stop da gal instead off starting on her.. not to mention how drunk i was... i mean i had the opportunity to pull her hair n shyt but lucky i didnt... but afta it all happened n D went home i was lyk Fk wherez dat gal.. wanted to start on someone.. but then didnt.. so yeah.. freaken weird nyt...) n just other lil things i guess... lyk seeing DM.. wtf lyk i dun even wanna c u let alone talk to u yet i am.. its lyk F U.. hmmm.. enough nonsense.. n concentrate.. gota focus... on da future... hmmm....